Psalm 35:9-10
Then my soul will rejoyce in the Lord and delight in it's salvation. My whole being will exclaim, "Who is like you, O Lord? You rescue the poor from those too strong for them, the poor and needy from those who rob them."
Thursday, April 29, 2010
The last 40 days
Hey Guys! Well, if you are friends with me on Facebook you know that I have been on a 40 day media fast. It was amazing!!!! It was difficult.....quite difficult! The days that I had loads of school to do and all I felt like doing was vegging out in front of the TV, or when I just wanted to talk to someone and couldn't but that is the point of a fast, right?? So what God has taught me....OH OH OH! The biggest thing! I have struggled with anxiety attacks EVERYDAY I was having attacks, i couldn't breath and I would lay in bed crying because I was so afriad of death......I am no longer scared of death! I can't wait to wait to go see my Prince, now! Before, yes, I wanted to go see Jesus but it was sooooo scary to me because I have no clue what heaven is going to be like and I didn't want to leave my family,you know, but now I know it is going to be amazing and whatever happens God will take care of my family! He has promised me that! My anxiety attacks have pretty much gone completely. I still have them occasionally and most of the time it is when I am excited about something or anxious about the future cause everything is changing and sometimes it makes me crazy but I always remember that even when my world is crashing in around me He is my rock. He will save me, He picks me up when I fall! HE {the God of the universe} loves me, He is my everything!
In my journal I put "I finally know what Paul meant when he said in Philippians 1:21 that for him to live is Christ and to die is gain. I so desire to reach this world for Christ but to die would mean that I would finally get to see my Prince! I would finally get my crouwn and my mansion made completely of heavenly things. AND I WOULD BE A PRINCESS!" And I said "Oh, how is feel that I have had a break through!" A break through is exactly what I had! I now no longer fear the things of this world because my God is so much bigger that anything here on this earth!
Ok so Number 2 thing that God has taught me....I was home alone with the two little boys (that just turned 3 on Sunday! :( they're growing up....anyway) and we were outside and they got fussy so we decided to come in to take a nap and I laid them down and gave them kisses and started to walk out and they both said "Mana (that's what they call me. it's Portuguese for sissy) don't leave. Lay down with us." But is had tons of homework that needed to be done and then I thought what is more important??? Studying or spending time and investing is my little brothers lives??? So I laid down with them until the were asleep.
Number 3! Exodus 14:13-14 "Moses answered the people, 'Do not be afraid. Standfirm and you will see the deliverance the Lord will bring you today. The Egyptians you see today, you will never see again.' "
God truly cares about me and about you and He will fight for His people. All we {as His people} need to do is to be still and stand firm on that promise!
Number 4....It doesn't matte what happens, what situation or circumstance I am in; VICTORY IS WON! He has already risen from the dead! He is not dead He is as alive as can be! It may seem that the Enemy is winning at the moment but He's not! Because Jesus Christ has already won the war!
The last thing that i want to write about is what He spoke to my heart last week....Last Wednesday night at church the topic was poverty and that is something that is really close to my heart since living in Brasil and seeing it first hand. Well, anyway, Will McKay talked about a girl who went to Uganda on a mission trip when she was 17 and fell in love with it so she came back to the States and sold everything, broke up with her high school sweet heart and moved to Uganda. She has started the organization where you can give 300 dollars a year to support a child there and oh she is just doing some amazing stuff. So I came home and went to her blog (www.kissesfromkatie.blogspot.com) and I was reading and I had this feeling that that is what I am suppose to do! She is doing what God has called me to do! If I could have I would have pack up and moved right then but God does have me here for the moment (but I can tell you that as soon as God tells me where and when I am out of here! haha) and since I am here I am not going to look at it as a curse but as a blessing! While I am here I am going to do everything in my power to raise awareness of the forgotten people, the poor, the starving, the homeless, the fatherless.
I hope all this made sense. Sometimes I feel like I am just rambling and not making any sense...like now....so I am going to say good-bye here! haha
See ya!
Kati
In my journal I put "I finally know what Paul meant when he said in Philippians 1:21 that for him to live is Christ and to die is gain. I so desire to reach this world for Christ but to die would mean that I would finally get to see my Prince! I would finally get my crouwn and my mansion made completely of heavenly things. AND I WOULD BE A PRINCESS!" And I said "Oh, how is feel that I have had a break through!" A break through is exactly what I had! I now no longer fear the things of this world because my God is so much bigger that anything here on this earth!
Ok so Number 2 thing that God has taught me....I was home alone with the two little boys (that just turned 3 on Sunday! :( they're growing up....anyway) and we were outside and they got fussy so we decided to come in to take a nap and I laid them down and gave them kisses and started to walk out and they both said "Mana (that's what they call me. it's Portuguese for sissy) don't leave. Lay down with us." But is had tons of homework that needed to be done and then I thought what is more important??? Studying or spending time and investing is my little brothers lives??? So I laid down with them until the were asleep.
Number 3! Exodus 14:13-14 "Moses answered the people, 'Do not be afraid. Standfirm and you will see the deliverance the Lord will bring you today. The Egyptians you see today, you will never see again.' "
God truly cares about me and about you and He will fight for His people. All we {as His people} need to do is to be still and stand firm on that promise!
Number 4....It doesn't matte what happens, what situation or circumstance I am in; VICTORY IS WON! He has already risen from the dead! He is not dead He is as alive as can be! It may seem that the Enemy is winning at the moment but He's not! Because Jesus Christ has already won the war!
The last thing that i want to write about is what He spoke to my heart last week....Last Wednesday night at church the topic was poverty and that is something that is really close to my heart since living in Brasil and seeing it first hand. Well, anyway, Will McKay talked about a girl who went to Uganda on a mission trip when she was 17 and fell in love with it so she came back to the States and sold everything, broke up with her high school sweet heart and moved to Uganda. She has started the organization where you can give 300 dollars a year to support a child there and oh she is just doing some amazing stuff. So I came home and went to her blog (www.kissesfromkatie.blogspot.com) and I was reading and I had this feeling that that is what I am suppose to do! She is doing what God has called me to do! If I could have I would have pack up and moved right then but God does have me here for the moment (but I can tell you that as soon as God tells me where and when I am out of here! haha) and since I am here I am not going to look at it as a curse but as a blessing! While I am here I am going to do everything in my power to raise awareness of the forgotten people, the poor, the starving, the homeless, the fatherless.
I hope all this made sense. Sometimes I feel like I am just rambling and not making any sense...like now....so I am going to say good-bye here! haha
See ya!
Kati
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